Gone.

There she goes. There she goes again. There she goes for good. Never to be seen again.

Jaded

I've been searching for so long. I'm so tired. There us barely a fragment left. If i lose this. I don't think i can recover. Is there anyone who can make me whole? Is there someone who would take me in their arms and not let go?

longing

i feel the longing again. especially when times are bad. you wish you had someone to hold you. some one to say that it will be alright. someone who listens. someone that would make you forget the pain. someone to rest your weary head on. someone who would take in your soul and give you a little of theirs in return. someone who would put you soul at ease. I still cant seem to find them. Even though i take all the darkness of everyone away. no one is there to take in mine. The pain grows deeper each day. knowing who you long for is who you cannot be with. knowing that no one sees the abyss of despair in you. No one who could make it a little easier each day. Where are you? are you even out there? would you show me the way home?

Maybe

Maybe just maybe i may have found something. I will see where this leads. Its different and it felt good. Lets walk forward together. Just a little bit.

It has all gone to hell.

I have nothing left. i have no one left. It was all lies. Lies of omission are still lies. Its over. I misplaced my faith. Now i have a price to pay. The darkness has reared its ugly head. The time to fight has come. I will walk into this alone. I will not give them anyone to treat as a weakness. This is war.